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Aisha Diandra / photographer. artist. designer. likes to dress up & pose, not a model. horror aficionado.
This blog is for my art, expression, inspiration, ramblings & everything in between.
I like the strange & spooky, beautiful & sensual, surreal & grotesque. contradictions fascinate me.

(the photos above are my own work.)

#diet

I can’t believe it’s not #pasta! Spaghetti squash with #mushrooms & soy milk cream sauce with a bit of #vegan flavoured #protein. #spaghetti #spaghettisquash #lowcarb #healthy #diet #bestthingever

I can’t believe it’s not #pasta! Spaghetti squash with #mushrooms & soy milk cream sauce with a bit of #vegan flavoured #protein. #spaghetti #spaghettisquash #lowcarb #healthy #diet #bestthingever

Kiwi, papaya, & half a grapefruit for #breakfast! Back to #healthyeating today & hoping I can keep this up as well as get back into exercising. Feeling crap about myself isn’t helping my situation. Fingers crossed feeling better about myself will make me feel less shit overall. #fruit #raw #healthy #food #vegan #eatclean #diet #nutrition

Kiwi, papaya, & half a grapefruit for #breakfast! Back to #healthyeating today & hoping I can keep this up as well as get back into exercising. Feeling crap about myself isn’t helping my situation. Fingers crossed feeling better about myself will make me feel less shit overall. #fruit #raw #healthy #food #vegan #eatclean #diet #nutrition

Stuffed #mushrooms. Lightly baked. Filled with capsicum, spring & red onions, and carrots. Plus Tabasco. #vegan #veganfoodshare #healthy #food #foodporn #eatclean #diet

Stuffed #mushrooms. Lightly baked. Filled with capsicum, spring & red onions, and carrots. Plus Tabasco. #vegan #veganfoodshare #healthy #food #foodporn #eatclean #diet

It’s not like I’ve done much to change my diet recently…and went ages without exercise…gahhh!!
#fitness #health #weightloss #exercise #fitgirlproblems #weightlossproblems #diet

It’s not like I’ve done much to change my diet recently…and went ages without exercise…gahhh!!
#fitness #health #weightloss #exercise #fitgirlproblems #weightlossproblems #diet

Something I need to remind myself of. Need to eat more good quality, healthy calories this year & stop going through phases of starving myself, then bingeing, then hating myself for it. I *will* fix my eating habits! #health #diet #eat #food #nutrition #recovery

Something I need to remind myself of. Need to eat more good quality, healthy calories this year & stop going through phases of starving myself, then bingeing, then hating myself for it. I *will* fix my eating habits! #health #diet #eat #food #nutrition #recovery

I hate thinking about my New Year’s resolutions…

…because I tend to fail at keeping them. However, 2012 has been such a headfuck of a year, with half of it involving me feeling like absolute shit, feeling too upset to leave the house and too anxious to do anything. 

I want to try my hardest to grab 2013 by its metaphorical balls and do my best to not let depression and anxiety get in the way of doing things.

By the end of the year I want to be confident with how I look, or at least comfortable enough with my body that I can fake confidence all the time, instead of just every now and then.

I want to give up some of my bad habits or at least seriously minimise them, and completely revamp my diet and eating habits so I can get skinny, healthier, fitter and less flabby…less processed food, more raw food and veggies.

On that note, I’m going to aim to run more, because as much as it’s a mission to get me to go for a run, I find it therapeutic after about 10 minutes, and I can keep going out of psychological motivation. I *WILL* have a body I like more, and I know it’s going to cost more time and effort on my part.

I really need to start caring less about things that aren’t that important, and stop stressing about things that aren’t that bad.

I need to stop wasting time and being more productive with my free time, even if it’s just reading a book or doing sketches, as long as I’m not spending hours browsing facebook.

That’s a fuck lot to commit to. But I suppose a lot of them overlap each other…so…we’ll see how I go…

Bring it on 2013…

Currently obsessed with #lettuce #salad #wraps. So tasty, healthy, filling, and easy to make. #health #healthy #nutrition #diet #vegan #vegansofig #veggies #vegetables #food #foodporn #whatveganseat #veganfoodshare (Taken with Instagram)

Currently obsessed with #lettuce #salad #wraps. So tasty, healthy, filling, and easy to make. #health #healthy #nutrition #diet #vegan #vegansofig #veggies #vegetables #food #foodporn #whatveganseat #veganfoodshare (Taken with Instagram)

I think a big part of my motivation for eating healthy & exercising regularly is so that when I have a fatty bingey day & pig out, I won’t feel as bad about it haha.

Today I had facon and cheese for breakfast.

A big ass felafel kebab for lunch, which I smothered in dijonnaise. 

Had a big toasted bread roll with waaay too much margarine.

Then had an epic parma, with salad & chips/fries, plus eggplant fritters/chips. I also had a bit of my friend’s ‘fish’. 
ALL THE DEEP FRIED VEGAN GOODNESS.

I haven’t even exercised today.

…and you know what? I don’t feel that bad about it, because it’s one indulgent day, and I’ve been pretty damn good before then.

:D

I think I’ll have some more wine, now.  

#lettuce #wraps! #vegan #vegansofig #veganfoodshare #food #foodporn #health #healthy #nutrition #diet #dinner #veggies #vegetables #tempeh (Taken with Instagram)

#lettuce #wraps! #vegan #vegansofig #veganfoodshare #food #foodporn #health #healthy #nutrition #diet #dinner #veggies #vegetables #tempeh (Taken with Instagram)

#healthy #dinner yay! #salad #veggies #vegansofig #vegan #vegetables #food #foodporn #diet #health #nutrition #whatveganseat (Taken with Instagram)

#healthy #dinner yay! #salad #veggies #vegansofig #vegan #vegetables #food #foodporn #diet #health #nutrition #whatveganseat (Taken with Instagram)

I’m starting to like eating healthy.

I was getting annoyed by it and finding it tedious to have to cook all the time, but I’m starting to get more used to it now and feeling good about it, because I know it’s good for me, and because of that, I feel less guilty when I decide to be a little naughty and eat not-so-healthy food. :)

Yay. 

Haha. At least 85% of what’s in the fridge is mine! Only the middle shelf, the oranges & the juices belong to my housemate! #vegan & #fresh #food FTW! #veggies #vegansofig #vegetables #raw #nutrition #health #healthy #diet (Taken with Instagram)

Haha. At least 85% of what’s in the fridge is mine! Only the middle shelf, the oranges & the juices belong to my housemate! #vegan & #fresh #food FTW! #veggies #vegansofig #vegetables #raw #nutrition #health #healthy #diet (Taken with Instagram)

Lettuce #wraps with #tofurkey slices, sprouts, kale, #daiya jack cheese. Nommm #vegan #whatveganseat #vegetables #healthy #foodporn #food #diet #dinner  (Taken with Instagram)

Lettuce #wraps with #tofurkey slices, sprouts, kale, #daiya jack cheese. Nommm #vegan #whatveganseat #vegetables #healthy #foodporn #food #diet #dinner (Taken with Instagram)

I love myfitnesspal.

I can’t believe I put off using it for so long. Pretty much addicted to using it now. Really helps me put things in perspective and make me smile at how much my routine daily walking to the city & such for uni & errands counts as cardio. 

It’s nice to see what I eat is actually pretty healthy and (usually) not overly naughty - though I calculated the nutrition info for my slutty brownies and haha omg…let’s not even go there, such sinful delicacies. XDVegan Slutty Brownies - worth every calorie. No, seriously.

Having the exercise goals there also totally helps motivate me. Yay. :3

I finally decided to use myfitnesspal

And based on today, this is what it tells me:

"Based on your total calories consumed for today, you are eating too few calories. Not only is it difficult to receive adequate nutrition at these calorie levels, but you could also be putting your body into starvation mode. Starvation mode lowers your metabolism and makes weight loss more difficult. We suggest increasing your calorie consumption to 1,200 calories per day minimum.”

well that’s weird, I’m totally full. :\